Hey, looks like you found my LJ.

Too bad it's friend's only. I did this so I wouldn't be harassed by strangers/assholes anymore. Yay. So unless I friend you, you can't see shit except some old entries. Sorry~

Now this is normally where I say 'comment if you wanna be added' but we all know I don't check backed entries very often so...yeah. I mean, if you do want to be added, comment by all means and if I know you/like you enough, I'll add ya. (This is a lie. I do check this fairly regularly, and there's a good chance I'll add you if you're remotely interesting or I vaguely know you)

If not, don't take it wrong, I just...don't...want to add you for whatever reason ^^;;;

SO IF YOU WANT MY LJ TO SEE, ANSWER ME THESE QUESTIONS THREE. 1) Who are you? 2) Why do want to be my friend? 3) what is the air-speed velocity of an unladen swallow? How did you find this place? These are things I just like to know, kthnx


Pookpookpook o3o
I like fishies.
But hate furverts. Ew.
(Normal furries are okay though)

Yeah, I found my box of old notebooks that range from 4th grade to 9th grade. It's...a gold mine of fiction, fanfiction, and old characters (I had SO MANY anthros...). Some of them i really want to re-draw, coz the concepts were neat. The info is great too, which means I'll be able to start up compiling stuff for my world soon~

I was trying to work on my drawing of Rune for my art class project, but gasmask guy decided he wanted to be drawn, and he plunked himself down at the top of thepaper. Literally. He's just sitting there, all snarky-like. My art teacher said he looked 'very mysterious' and 'fascinating'. I showed her other drawings and she liked them quite a bit. I'm drawing him in my next homework assingment. Whoo. I tried drawing him without his gasmask a few times, and it keptcoming out badly or...strange. Like...I wrote a short story once about Syn finding him unconsious and taking offhis mask...but I haven't fully decided what exactly is under it...scars maybe? Stitches? Exposed skin (a la RE zombies)? I have a concept for his mouth...though I'm not sure it'll stay. It's hard to explain too...but just be assured it's creepy. oo;; He's an odd one, Shaedo is...
[FUN FACT: If you remember my icon from dA and my watermark, the logo is the gasmask and hammers...prolly this is the earliest showing of him]

UH. I also looked up breed info on Akitas, Ainus, Shiba Inus, Malamutes and Huskies. I really want a dog some day, and I'm looking into what would be best for me. Still no clear answer, but I suspect that'll change over time.

I have to go soon-- the teacher here is leaving early so I'll be going soon.

My view on tabletop games (coz this came up in a conversation a few minutes ago):

Okay. I think they're for losers, like card games. Yes this means I'm a horribly stereotypical person, but really now. Crad games are for total losers. For gods' sakes, they're CARDS. Mm-hm, I see your mage 'attacking' my elf, and I throw the freakin' dice at you in retaliation.

I collect cards, but for the artwork. Not the games. Pfft. I may not have a life, but I'm beter than that.

But I digress. See, with tabletop games...you make character sheets and pretend you're that character and...do stuff. I dunno. You sit and a circle around the table and talk about what's happening. Like verbal RP. I just know a bunch of people that play D&D and they're all...well, not the most popular people. White wolf games are the only game I could see myself getting into, really. But only because of the werewolves. I just don't see why people waste their lives on it. Convince me it's good, guys, tell me why.

I just...could never play a game like that. No thank you, sir, I like electronic RP better. Yes, I do realize that it's not much coler or better, but for me...I'm a writer. And RPing over the inanet is like...writing a story, each of you taking turns. Would I play D&D if it was online? Maybe. I like making profiles and character sheets, so fine. And as long as I could make a rat flail out of a stick i found and a dead rat, i'm cool. And i want to be a dragon. or something gay like that, not an elf or hobbit. I wanna be something that burns stuff. Hurr.


UM OKAY.
I'm done. Sorry if I offended anyone.
I have nothing against my friends; to each their own. But I'm entitled to MY opinions, and that's how I feel. that, and I'm in a slightly ranty and critical mood. Sry guys, rly.

It's not like I'm much cooler anyways XD

Okay, so people ask me what got me so darn obsessed with gasmasks.
Two words: Psycho Mantis.

Have you ever played Metal gear Solid? there's a creepy bad guy named psycho mantis, and he's all buckles and leather and a gasmask. HE HAS THE COOL GASMASK TOO. And he's so crazy and spooky...oooh. And the wel-known trick that happens...if you have a Castlevania save on your memory crad, when you got to a certain point and you were talking to him, he would say "I'm looking deeper into your mind. Into your soul. You like Castlevania, don't you?" and it was awesome. BEST GAME QUOTE EVER. In the top five at least.

So that is where my obsession came from.

Yeah, massive rantage. About yiff. This contains some strong language and a lot of bitching and text, so if you may feel offended...well, read on. I like pissing people off. Or skip it. Whatever. I need to get this off my chest. No LJ cut either. Have fun.

First, let me use this post to rant my ass off about yiffers, more commonly known as furverts. I post this rant only because of discussions I've been having recently with my friends and I figure I should make my stance clear. As clear as I can, at least.

Now, there is a big differance, firstly, between anatomically correct, tasefull nude, and yiff. My dog and cat are anatomically correct. I don't go 'OMFG PUT PANTS ON, SICKO' but I don't go staring at their nether regions either. It's a fact that animals have genitals and that in the real world, they do not wear pants. This is oemthing we see every day, and do little to regard it. But it's not like normal people sit there and fap to their pets or go about humping them either. Drawing a non-anthro anatomically correct is fine by me. It's the way nature is. Drawing an anthro anatomically correct (and by anatomically correct I mean with 'animal' parts, not human-style parts -.-;) is okay-- I don';t seek it out and look at it, but if people want to draw that...fine. i don't freak out so much about that. Whatever. I do wonder about people who get off on that but...it's not like I'm gonna change their minds. THEN there is tasteful nudes, which is done with either anthros having 'animal' bit, or human-ish bits. Tasteful nude is something that exists in the art world. Life drawing classes are classes where you draw the human form (key word, human but anyways) nude. It's a body, and it's beautiful. in furry world...tasteful nudes are alright-- again, it's ot like I oogle it, search for it, and get off on it and I do wonder about those who do, but still. I freak out to less of an extent. it's less 'gross' and 'twisted' but from what I have seen, tasteful nude doesn't exist much. People pass off horribly yiffy and provocative things as tasteful nude. IT BURNS US. THEN we have yiff. You know what yiff is, if you are reading this. I don't want to describe it. it can range from things that burn the retinas (but that one can recover from) to a dimension of pervy fucking sickness that makes you wonder what the fuck is wrong with humanity. IT IS THIS that give anthro art a bad name. Because of yiffers, innocent furry artists are accused of partaking in beastiality. THEY GIVE US A BAD NAME MND MAKE PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF NEVER WANT TO DRAW ANTHROS AGAIN, OR AT LEAST NOT FOR A VERY LONG TIME. I offer a collective 'fuck you' to the yiffers. Really, what has to be wrong with someone that they get off on this sort of stuff? I frankly see little differance between getting off on nekkid or humping anthros and getting off on your house pets. YOU PEOPLE FUCKING DISGUST ME. PLEASE GO DIE NOW. THANKS.

Really, it's just sick, sometimes, the shit that comes up. Anthros with six wangs twice their body size and breasts the size and general shape of truck tires biting the cock of a inflated rubber dolphin centaur-herm. I wish I was making that shit up, I REALLY do. THIS IS WHY I NO LONGER VISIT VCL. It's sad, because some artist draw very, very well and could be doing amazing pictures and instead they do yiff. or more recently, there are artists who have resisted yiff for years but feel compelled to give in for acclaim because 'normal anthro art isn't interesting enough' and that they have to 'keep up with the time and trends'.

YOU FURVERTS SHOULD BE COLLECTIVELY OFFED. And you SICK FUCKS that oogle this art and fap to it, getting all hot and bothered, thinking you aren't doing anything 'wrong' since you 'don't draw it'....YOU SHOULD DIE AS WELL. FUCK ALL OF YOU SICKOS. YOU ARE VERY. VERY DISTURBED. I am literally so angry and disgusted that I can't even type out words to represent it. Just...go die.



ANYWAYS.
Those are my thoughts.
Agree? Disagree? Have no clue what 'yiff' and 'furries' are? Comment. Or not. i don't care-- this post was mainly to vent anyways.

OMG FF6 IS CRACK FOR GAMERS.

So, I have to say I have a FEW fave parts. None of them REALLY spoil the plotline or anything, but they do sort of say what happens. Even if they are minor events. I dunno. If you are really 'OMG I want to know NOTHING about the game before I play it' stop reading. These are only minor things, but maybe other people consider it bigger. I dunno.

AN-EE-WAYS

One of my favorite parts is the Opera House scene. I love Celes' preformance, and the music is pretty good. It's one of the most well-known parts and well-liked too. SOME PEOPLE think it's overrated but...I don't. I like me my opera house. IF A GAME CAN MAKE YOU APPRECIATE OPERA, IT'S GOOD.

My other fave part, aside from the endings [which I think everyone likes in a game, which I will not disclose because they ARE spoilers] is the part on the Floating continent where Celes stabs Kefka. It is a moment whereyou want to scream 'YOU GO GIRL' really loud. it's an amazing moment. And it involves the imfamous line "I hate hate hate hate hate hate... hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate HATE YOU!" Nice linguistics, Kefka. XDDD

STILL. it's amazing. I love the scene. If you play through the game to that point, and you'll have to agree that was pretty good.

RIGHT NOW. I'm in the world of Ruin, like, JUST got there. I still got a ways to go but hey, I'm making good time for just recently restarting my game ^^



OH AND I AM ALMOST FINEESHED WITH THE MINI BIOS. I just have to tweak Kihoni's and Gatta's and I'll be done. Though I warn you, they are REALLY short things and are more like info notes but who cares; THEY ARE INFORMATIVE!

Gara-muse: -hates you all-

AVAST MATIES! ARRRR, Capt'n Popadoppolus, scrougeof th' three seas (don't ye be a' fretin; I'll get th' other fer seas later. Yar) here...postin' fr'm m'adviserrr.

I be dressed like a pirate fer costume day, andsome speechmust match me rags. ARRR. It be too early to be talking like this.

Arrr, right now we be a' havin' a class party, so I must be a' goin'. I think that fine hurdy-gurdy player be a' givn' me the eye. Yarr.

May smooth sailing be in sights fer all of ya's!

ARRRRRRRRR!

More movies need slow-motion blimp crashes

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
--Crossfade, "Cold"


I used to call her Lime when no one was around. I whispered it to myself when no one was listening. The affectionate name I came up with for her. I guess I like nicknames. I call the bounding moron 'Coon' all the time; he's easily as crazy as a coon. He thinks it mean 'raccoon' though, but let him think that. The boy was never the sharpest spoon in the drawer anyways. He's got some issues, I guess, some divine upset on how he was 'abandoned'. Doesn't he know that's how life for our type goes? We come equipped to live on our own, and it's never being 'abandoned'. He doesn't get it though.

I don't think he ever will.

There's a lot of things the kid don't understand. He's too young. Scratch that; there's another thing about our type...age is hardly a matter. He's too...naive. That's it. Naive. He acts without thinking and ruthlessly defends those he loves even when he suspects they are wrong. And when they're cruel to him...he lets it roll off. He's like that, my little Coon.

Not like Lime at all. At first I named her because how she could so acrid and sour, and then secondly because of all the green. I never said it out loud, that was my little secret.

Did I ever like her? Do I like her? It's hard to explain. Not that I won't TRY. I've had a lot of time to think about things.

First, we did what we did because we were dragooned into it. It was an arranged thing. Let me just get that out of the way.

Now back up a bit. I first met her when I was getting into the occult, trying to get things to work. We are a race of technology, but I wondered if we were capable of more fantasical and less logical things such a magic. It'd be useful, at any rate, to smite any idiots in my way. Then SHE showed up. She was intrigued by my cruel guile, and for once I found someone who didn't utterly make me lose faith in existance. I could teach her my ways, coax her over as a minion. She was my student, and by far one of the few people I would dare to call 'friend'. Not at the time, but later on.

That's when the idiot humans though 'oh gee, let's ruin a friendship by giving them kids'. I say this because...it seems when two people are close, they cease to be friends. They lose sight of their goals in lieu of having spawn. I never wanted to be like that.. I was too busy for kids, and truth be told, I didn't want to lose her as a friend. I knew it would happen. I don't like affection. I don't like emotions (other than the murderous rage I feel 24/7...I guess it's comforting and make me feel real)...and I have my reasons for that. Heh, it's actually deeper than "Emotions are boring, let's watch shit get blown up!" too. Just another drabble about crap getting in the way. I don't want to bother with it.

I liked it when me and little Lime were just friends. There was less complications, less pressure to cater to the other one, less pressure to uphold everything for not just us, but everyone else around us. Expectation...too much for my liking. it's not that I CAN'T take it, it's that I DON'T WANT TO. if your mate is mad at you, and you fight, it could mean a messy end to things. Not saying that it can't happen with a friend, but...it's easier to repair if you only fight with a friend, and less agony if it can't be replaced. You can always get new friends and minions, after all.

I like her as a friend. There. I said it.

But I got mad. I screwed up. I know she's seen my insane side, my curel, domineering side, but...last night she saw a side I was never willing to give up. And now she'll see another. I...guess I'm sorry. Yeah. I wish she could just be my friend. My student, and I her teacher. Not this "mother and father, husband and wife" crap everyone else wants. I can't face everyone right now. I don't want to deal with their stupid questions, ugly faces, and even more annoying, grating voices. So I do it the cowards way, with a slip of paper. For the first time in my life, I'm behaving like an underminded coward. Maybe when there ain't so many certins around, I'll talk to her. But now...I don't wanna be bugged.

I wish they'd understand.

Everything.

Okay, so I need to update this more. If more people commented I think I'd do so, because then i'd have the feeling people care about reading this and have motivation to write. In the later news...


OMGWTFBBQ MY AUNT IS BUYING ME A SCANNER.Not JUST a scanner, but a scanner/fax/printer combo. I CAN FINALLY UPLOAD DECENT DOODLES. Like, I'll be drawing Faust and hopefully Omen and Rune. REF SHEETS AHOY! It gives me motivation to draw....and actually take time and put effort into it! Huzzah!

...Just thought you'd all want to know. ^^

Neaking on at school while I should be researching my homework.

See, in mythology we have this huge project that is UBER open-ended. Meaning, we get to pick any mythology (or even make up our own as long as we can tie it into other mythology's themes and stuff) and do any form of project we want and then present it as we see fit.

I'm doing the prescence of mythology and religion in video games. I have the creation myths and polytheistic setup of the Suikoden game, the prescence of Norse mythology in Final Fantasy 7, and then finally examining the cult and their religion from Silent Hill. HAha. That part is by far the longest so far....29 pages of info, in-game documents, and alternate resources-- I need to sort thorugh to pick out duplicated info, useless info, and other stuff.

But yeah. The final fantasy part is pretty damn long too...longer if I hadn't limited it to just FFVII.

I'm going to my friend's house tonight too. We're gonna hang out and stuff....maybe I'll pop on over there at some point.

Oh, and to my stalkers... Heeeey ^^=

This is too funny. I laughed so hard when I heard this....but I'm just easily amused. How to get it....in the game. How in the game? Well, that's for you to find out. I'm not one for spoilers (unless you beg xD).

( Silent Hill song )

Yep, new place, new name. This means I've had a blog, a GJ (which is still active, actually), a xanga and a Gaian journal before. Now, I finally have an active LJ. To allt he people who have tagged along and followed me like so many hippies after the Greatful Dead, sankyuu! I love you all. Drop a comment, you guys, even if you don't have a LJ. It'll mean a lot.

To my new friends (provided I gain some)-- welcome to my insanity! If you don't suck out after the first few posts, then that means your mind has rapidly developed a callus to defend against the wounds my ramblings can create. I look forward to meeting and getting to know you all.

SO, without further ado, I shall get to the process of moving some basic information back over here from my old blog.

I swear this place needs better smilies -pokes at the lame yellow faces-